My selfish wants stand in the way of my devotion to God.  These self-seeking wishes divide my heart and make my spiritual walk wishy-washy.  I fear never getting my desires fulfilled.  My unwillingness to surrender these wants keeps me from growing closer to God.

James 1:8 is, “Their loyalty is divided. between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do.”  (Holy Bible, New Living Translation, 1996, 2004, 2007).  Divided hearts are detestable to God.  He commands us to completely surrender to Him.   When I have one foot chasing my wants and the other trying to follow God, I can’t do all God asks of me.

Partial surrender seems better than complete defiance.  I have learned that partially surrendering my heart to God is tricky.  I think that I am fine, but am still far away from God.  Letting go of my selfishness frees me and cures my divided heart.

God is not a Santa Claus that fill dreams like an Amazon wish list.  Instead, He gives us what we need and what is best for us.  After surrendering my desires, I realize some are foolish and I am better off not getting them.  My desire to write has been refined over the years so I want to use it to glorify God. God is not done working in my heart and is molding my will to match His.