Lately, I have been skidding down a road I do not want to be on.  I confess, I have eaten too much in the evenings. Some nights, it is after 8:00 p.m. before I am able to eat dinner and I eat too fast.  Other nights, I am so exhausted that I blindly stuff food into my mouth, when I am no longer hungry. Most days, I only eat what I should for breakfast and lunch, but overeat later in the day.  I have not gained weight yet, but I my weight loss has plateaued. I know what I need to do, so now I must doRead More →

God has delivered me from destructive eating habits, but I am still not perfect.  Last night, I thought I was hungry and had a bedtime snack.  I broke my streak of not eating after dinner for three weeks. The positive is that this snack was just one Pop Tart and about four ounces of yogurt.  The negative is this is extra food my body did not need.  This morning my stomach feels sour and is rumbling, trying to process this excess. I have several choices about what to do next. I can try and justify my slip and tell myself I am so much betterRead More →

I have difficulty forgiving others when the hurt is painful.  It is hard to let go of my pride and admit I am wrong. I like hanging on to hurt feelings so I can throw a pity party. The pain from past situations has faded over the years and I can’t believe some things bothered me.  I feel sometimes as if I have mastered to act of forgiveness, and then someone offends me again.  I let the pride over “how can they be that dumb to do this” and hurt over “how can they be this mean” come into my brain.  Once the emotions getRead More →

Fear causes stress, disrupts my sleep and pushes me to overeat. The anxiety of not knowing how a situation will turn out, leads me to imagine the worst possible outcome.  Instead of helping me feel better, this usually makes me worry more.  In the grip of emotional distress, I hit the pantry or refrigerator for something to ease my pain.  The truth is overeating salty snacks does nothing to calm my fear, but instead gives me stomach pain.  Instead of eating, I need to turn to God to help me face my fear. Most of my fears are only exist because of my imagination. My mostRead More →

God created people to fellowship with Him.  He created me with an empty space in my heart that only He can fill.  In vain, I have spent my life trying to stuff this space with food.  Even though I know food will not cure the problem, I continue overeating as a solution.  When I realize I have fallen, I am embarrassed because I chose food over God. After I slip and overeat, I want to hide from God as Adam and Eve did in Genesis 3:8.  Deep down, I know I have not fallen too far to never come back.  I also know I need toRead More →

I was once bound by the chains of food addiction.  Food was my stronghold, my source of comfort, and solution for my problems.   I called myself a Christian, but actually loved food more than God.  I loved food so much that it became my idol.  Since I ate more food than my body needed, I was overweight.  I tried diets, but was unable to permanently keep the weight off.  Even when dieting I overate, eating excess “healthy” foods like flavored rice cakes and baked chips. Food did not make me happy like I thought it would.  I was miserable and eventually cried out to God forRead More →

Vacations and holidays are a time to overeat, or so most people think.  After all, when on vacation, we indulge in relaxation and rest.  Indulging in food seems like a natural part of being on a vacation. Vacations are break from reality and day to day stress, but I should never take a vacation from obedience. I am talking about obedience to God instead of obedience to the diet.  Being on a diet and being on vacation do not go together.  The one time I went on a cruise, I packed larger clothes that I needed on the last days.  Most people see vacations as the time to takeRead More →

I have been under a lot of stress lately.  School has started and my once lazy days of summer are long gone.  Not only can I no longer relax all day, but I have stress popping up from all directions.  My floors are covered with a layer of dust and grit.  I have two errands that are about 30 miles away in opposite directions.  I find myself trying to cram errands, work, and time for my family in a too small block of time.  So, I reason, maybe it is okay for me to use food to relieve this stress. My stress is still theRead More →

Food thoughts once ran constantly through my mind.  I woke up and planned my meals for the day. As the day progressed, I fantasized about food I would like to eat.  These thoughts convinced me I was hungry and tempted me to eat. When on a diet, I dreamed about what I was missing and tried to think of ways I could eat cake, (or nachos, pizza and cookies).    All these thoughts on food caused me to eat. I wasted much time planning meals when following a diet.  Many times during the day, I calculated what I had consumed and determined what else I couldRead More →

What is the point of obedience when I am not losing weight?  I have been eating when I am hungry; stopping when I am full, and feel like I am not losing weight.   Since I did not pay attention to how much I weighed, I feel as if the scale has not moved.  So, should I just forget about eating obediently?  After all, I can always start over tomorrow if I decide to try again. Since I am almost 50 years old, I might be stuck with these extra pounds for the rest of my life, no matter what I eat. I have allowed stinking thinking to takeRead More →